New Dates

After our follow up visit with the doctor last week we have discovered we will have to push things back to at least May or possibly June. Everything looked okay during the surgery, but I just wasn't where he wanted me to be in terms of having the best chance of conceiving during the transfer if we had gone ahead with it this month. That was really hard to hear, but I'm glad he's looking out for our best chances and not just interested in making more money with subsequent tries if it doesn't work the first time.

During the whole process we have been told not to get our hopes up and not to start becoming emotionally attached to the idea of conceiving. We even had to do a psycological profile to determine our state of mind before our doctor would take me as a patient. I thought this was silly and I was just going to go through the motions and not counting on anything. If it happens, it happens. We know our paths have already been laid out, and we're just walking down them. My friends that have gone through this have been telling me to keep a close tab on where I was emotionally with the process because it would hit me all at once if I didn't. Well, I had been saying, and I truly believed, that I wasn't getting too heavily invested with it. However, when my doctor said that he didn't think we were going to be ready for the April transfer, it hit me. I cried. And I felt a huge disappointment. But, I've gotten over it and decided that it will be a miracle no matter when it happens. I'll tell you though, if I go a lifetime without hearing "If you quit trying so hard it will happen," it will be just fine with me!

Mr. Brock Gives Me Advice

You probably won't believe this but I often talk to Brock when no one is around. You know just to bounce ideas off of him and see what they sound like out loud. Like what to eat for dinner, business ideas, the differences between hard and wet food etc. Yesterday I had an idea and right after I said it, Brock looked at me then licked himself. I guess I need to find another idea.

I'm Awake!

So I had a little day surgery today. No big deal, mostly because of some really good drugs! Seriously, I usually hate anesthesia and pain medicine because it makes me feel woozy. But, I talked to them about that, and the anesthesiologist promised to give me "the good stuff". I think it worked! The last thing I remember before the surgery was talking to one of the doctors that was going to be assisting, and noticed the anesthesiologist giving me a shot in my IV. I asked if he was trying to keep me quiet, and then I thought that was the funniest thing I had ever heard! I remember they were lifting me from my gurney over to the OR table and I couldn't stop giggling. They asked me if I was having a good time...then ca put. I was out. But I woke up to Randy sitting right beside my bed smiling and asking me if I felt alright. Then I saw Mary Jane there, and couldn't even make myself talk. I just smiled like there wasn't a thing going on in the world. I woke up a little later and Randy asked me if I remembered talking about Leslie being there. I knew I had seen Mary Jane, but apparently her phone rang and it had Leslie's ring tone, "True Colors" by Cyndi Lauper (Make your own judgements on that one! :) )and I thought I was talking to her too. I had some odd dreams, but nothing too write about. I slept the drunk feeling off all day today, so now I'm worried I'll be up all night...

So, the surgery was to make sure I didn't have any fibroids or polyps in my uterus, and to be sure it was tilted right. The doctor talked to Randy while I was in recovery and apparently, everything is in the right spot and I didn't have anything I wasn't supposed to. Whew! I guess that's a relief! I have a follow up appointment on the 15th, so I will find out where we go from here. Since we have decided to go ahead with IVF, we set a game plan at our last appointment. Of course it's subject to change, but we have tentatively scheduled the retrieval on April 17th and the embryo transfer to be 3 or 5 days after that. Hopefully, I will find out next week that that is still the case. I will let you know more then!

And, I haven't forgotten to update you on my cousins! Tim is doing well in California. I hear he's really glad to be home and trying to get back to normal. He will have surgery on his middle finger on March 28th. He will have to fly back to Bethesda in Washington to have it done. He has a new email, pratherta@yahoo.com, for those of you that didn't get HR's email. And on that note, Hello Havin's/Haven's Family!!! Glad to have you visiting! My other cousin, Kalvin, has been at home and doing very well. He has been accepted in a physical therapy program in Galveston. This is really great news and the next step in getting him where he needs to be as far as being his old self again. I don't know how anyone could look at these two examples and not know that the Lord really does work miracles through prayer.

I have seen all of the comments to Randy's post, and I have already let him know he will have to be a feature blogger more often! We do love hearing from you all! Thanks for all of your prayers and encouragement. Until next time...Good Night, and Good Bye Captain America!!!

Vacation 2007

I wanted to go to Vegas. Cory said she didn't want to be pregnant in Vegas because she wouldn't have a very good time. She's thinking Mexico...again. I suggested a cruise. Our friends said "NO!" to that. Here's how the thought process went:

If Cory is going to be pregnant, then we may have to rethink the whole vacation destination anyway. I don't know if Mexico would be any better than Vegas. That is why I thought a cruise might be good. We would just have to keep Leslie doped up on dramamine. I only say that because I don't think pregnant women are supposed to eat fish or shrimp or anything like that and also because of the WHAT IF factor when dining on anything in Mexico. I just thought that at least on a cruise you would know that the food would be safe and it would probably be fun. I know a place where we can get some really cheap cruises. Then again, I also thought of New York, or Foxwoods Casino in Connecticut or Boston or maybe even Disneyland. I really like Disneyland and think that everyone else should too, I mean, whats not to like. There are also alot of beaches in this country and I like beaches too. I also like water, so that works out pretty good with the whole beach idea. I also like mountains, which don't have beaches but do have water, only not saltwater, freshwater and it is usually cold. BRRRRRR! But it is really pretty and we drink cold water so it wouldn't be bad either. Maybe we could all go to Mount Rushmore I don't know how that thing happened but I bet it would be cool to find out. If we go there maybe we could go on into Canada, EH? I don't know why anyone would but they might. What do you think everyone would like? As you can see I have many ideas, how about that! I probably have more but then it would seem like I am just rambling on and nobody wants to read some crazy guys ramblings.

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